my dear Notee

Notee felt a little weird after I knocked it again while brushing today -.-. For a moment, I thought it is leaving me forever, but luckily it is still intact to remind me that I haven’t blogged about it. Notee (pronounced like ‘naughty’) is an adult tooth now attaching soul-lessly (but hopefully firmly) to my gum. Decided to name it after reading Lardee and ickle.

Have been wanting to blog about my teethache incident but now I couldn’t remember much of the details after the much information loaded attachment. In any case, my whole set of teeth was in this excruciating pain on a particular day after eating N bazhangs the day before, inhaling a gust of cold air on a lrt, which gave my sensitive teeth some torturous moments and yes, as usual, knocked my front teeth while brushing. The pain was unbearable, especially so when I was not biting, ironically. Thought it was the heat but TCM didn’t help. In the end, I went to the dentist, unwillingly, for fear that I might follow dad’s teethsteps. The dentist didn’t know what’s wrong with me either because I couldn’t pin point to her the source of pain. It was just...the whole set of teeth >.<. So she put some substance on each of most of my teeth to check. Was supposed to feel pain if the tooth is normal. In the end, I couldn’t feel anything for Notee, or rather the pain was very much delayed. X-ray then revealed that the tooth nerve for Notee is dying due to some not-so-well-done filling I had a few years back. The dentist explained that sometimes the sensation for one tooth can be felt for the entire set of teeth. I bet this has something to do with the brain sensory areas learnt in bio psych but I cannot remember the term >.<

Anyway, the solution is…root canal therapy. Basically, it is the digging out of the dying nerve, cleaning it and filling it up, all in two stages. Had 2 injections of anesthetics for each stage and it really didn’t hurt (very much to my surprise after the horrible experience I had when I was 7)! Tried without anesthetic initially for my second stage cuz my tooth nerve is already removed but the pressure exerted by my tooth clamp is way too high for me to bear so I surrendered. Made me realized how strong our teeth could be!

Well, so now I have a soulless Notee residing in my mouth. So sad that I am always having issues with my teeth but dad says it couldn’t be helped much because I inherited it, uh-oh. Mum realized after watching news that she shouldn’t have fed me abnormally lots of milo using milk bottle last time, double uh-oh. And myself? I shouldn’t have avoided brushing my gums during younger days for fear I might brush my gums away >.<, more uh-oh. But what’s done cannot be undone. I shall take even better care of my teeth now! Especially Notee (a saint now since he is deprived of any worldly sensations >.<), which is the weakest now and might just crack if I bite on something too hard. Please hang in there forever, Notee!

awesome much! =)

hello blog! a delayed post i realised was saved as draft n not posted lol..time to remove the ge post from the first liao ahaha

have been wanting to update my blog, especially on my poor toofy, but I just get myself to do it. Updates on my tooth gonna be up soon, real soon cuz memory of that crazy incident is fading soon despite me whining quite a bit haha! Op stage 2 next week and I shall say hi to my new-yet-old tooth, plus one week worth of cracked lips!

Want to leave a note here that I AM ENJOYING MY ATTACHMENT amidst all the swiss roll!! awesome experience for the first week!! wheeeeee :)

wah~!

another delayed one >.<

i guess nobody likes his/her kind intentions to be mistaken

but i think i am taking it too hard cuz i am at fault too being last minute that time

perhaps i could have done better

now i can only hope for a knight in shiny armour

General Elections

To me, general elections is like a national acitivty. Similar to NDP, but of course this time round, it successfully mobilised the whole nation, voters or non-voters, including this not-of-age-but-just-taken-oath me.

I vaguely remember the last GE. Not very much on the rallies and political issues, but on knowing that oh, there is opposition in Hougang , CST (because of the hokkien rhyme his name has, which unfortunately came true this time) and yes, the famous james gomez case. Being already a secondary school student then, i now conclude that i was rather political apathetic that time. I was excited over GE by virtue of it being GE. haha full stop. I rememeber watching the results release and getting excited that Teo Ho Pin got high votes. full stop.

five years later, its GE again! maybe its the additional 5 years of education, maybe its my age, maybe my peers, i became more interested in GE, despite it being in the midst of my exams. I got excited when the PAP truck came round my neighbourhood, even when it did so many times every day (no sign of opp thou ><). I caught GE news, i followed GE news/gossips/forum online, i talked GE. the names of those prominent candidates somehow just registered in my brain better than my test materials. I celebrated my post exam with Geraldine and Yuting at rally blowing the bibi (the whistle they gave out) in the damp flooded field. I stood there for a whole 3 hours when normally i would have rushed off somewhere to grab a seat. i cheered, i blowed my whistle, i paid attention (not to the entire thing but thats a feat given that i just ended exams haha). i caught 27 times of Yam Ah Mee (oh, how famous is he now btw. but i think he really did a superb job!) that result release sat despite knowing the results beforehand through Geraldine. But still, i think many are like me, they want to confirm the results. Maybe as the news said, being overly involved in GE may cause some aftereffects, i actually got sick after GE haha. just joking, it is the late sat night cum all the incense paper dust that caused it. and so i celebrated mummy's day with mummy with my nose tap on XD.on hindsight, woah! just whats with me?!

Nonetheless, it felt fufilling to be in the know of what is going in your nation. most importantly, I learnt that GE can have so many implications. I didn't know so many things can be going around within such a short period. this time. all the seats got contested except tanjong pagar's. PAP is no longer always the strongest. times have changed and our leaders couldn't be like those in the past anymore. opposition now knows how to strategise. voting suddenly becomes a very very important decision. and this very very important decision of many has resulted the voting out of important ministers, opposition's loss of potong pasir, and yadah yadah. No point whining/complaining/cheering about any results. Hopefully, WP can prove themselves to be worthy of the loss in the cabinet with some concrete plans they never unveil during the campaign. Hopefully the first opp guy i know won't be too disappointed, his chiam see is afterall more than 2 decades, thats worth applauding already. Hopefully, TPL proves herself, mum says she is someone who will genuinely help people, i believe so too. Hopefully, given PAP's results this time round, they would really do something to deal with the citizen's increasing resentment to them. To me, they are still the strongest, but then the opposition are improving too.

On a lighter note, i am really glad i have two kakis with me in this GE craze. similarly not of age, Geraldine and Yuting makes good kakis to discuss GE stuff. Amazingly, they made me feel that i do have my own take too. I love the GE stuff we update each other, be it the serious (who said what, when and where, and what happen after that) or the not serious at all stuff (certian MP who is very good looking and kee qiu!). I may not be like the many who analyse and blog about their take on politics but this time round, i guess i can say that i am not politically apathic. Sign of growing up! :D

breathe in, breathe out

that icecream waffle we shared
that vegetarian spread we had
that movie we couldn't catch
those little tricks i fell to
those things i never tell
am i late or
am i no good
but what can i do
for certain reasons
they are coming back

can history repeat itself again?

life PK death

The second post I am blogging on ms word and blogger is still down. I was reading my previous entries. Glad I kept a blog. So many things I have sort of forgotten! And those that I blogged about indirectly, they are really good retrieval cues! Haha okies, so which one of the random posts in my mind should I post. Oh the reason why I have been busy since exams more than a week ago. I was helping my mother folding incense paper. I call it oragami, cuz that’s how I always mispronounce origami. That folding took me 3 full days. 120 boxes in total. The ingots I folded amount approximately to 160 per box so..yea..same actions for three days. I am awed at myself 0.o.

On a side note, since we are on incense paper. One of my friends had a life and death encounter recently. This life and death doesn’t mean a situation when one's life is in critical danger. But really life - with another life into this world. And death - with yet another one leaving this world. To her, both were unexpected. And this really goes to show how life is unpredictable. So am I supposed to congratulate her or send her my condolences? Dilemma but I guess death seems to override life in this scenario. So unpredictable…it only reminds me to appreciate what I have with me now. But again, am I greedy, am I what. Every time something happens that make me think life’s unpredictable so I must treasure what I have AND make sure I pursue certain things that I want to avoid regrets. But in the end, as time pass, I forgot about it. Or that intensity fades. And once again. I start to take things for granted. Once again. I start to become a coward. I don’t dare to move a step forward to pursue to fight for what i wanted. Again. Time to grow up, peiyee.

hello pocket! exams are over n heng, i'm still a student!

I am blogging in ms word. Because blogger is down when I am finally free and in the mood of blogging lol. Anyway, hello blog! I am so sorry I abandon you again for quite some time. Yes, normally I come here once exam is over to yell hurray or sorts but somehow I don’t have the time to do so this semester. Was busy shifting home and after that, things come pouring (okie, not that serious, streaming only) in.

But, 迟到好过没到 right! So YESH YESH YESH! Another semester is over and I say byebye to year 2! I can’t believe my eyes, ears, and other sense organs that I am half way through university life and so much closer to worklife. This feeling is crazy. Many a time when I stroll everywhere, anywhere in NUS during the night with Geraldine/Yuting/after meetups, it just occured to me that THIS IS A LIFE OF A STUDENT. When I take train/bus on a random afternoon during working hours, it again occured to me that THIS IS A LIFE OF A STUDENT. So shiok! But. Soon, I won’t be able to explore NUS at night anymore. Soon, I won’t be able to mug like a kid in library, random wooden benches, random exotic places anymore. Soon, I won’t be able to be outside roaming during working hours anymore. Soon, I won’t be that easily forgiven for any mistakes I make in CCA anymore. Many things. The list goes on. Because soon, I am no longer a student.

Suddenly, I realize I really need to cherish my student status. Remember we were younger, everyone can’t wait to grow up and stop having exams, but now I fear not being a student. Well, people might say make the most out of your education years so that you have something to reminisce then. But, people are greedy, or maybe I am greedy. I don’t want to reminisce only, I want the experience. Hmm, then become like deliang, odear, I don’t want to be an oldie among all the ahgirls and ahboys. Odear, this is getting nowhere. I don’t want to leave school. I have two more years to overcome this feel.

Alright, I didn’t intend to write about the middle portion, but it just pop out at the spur of moment I typed ‘say byebye to year 2!’ Actually, there are lots of things that I want to blog over these few days. Either I did not have the time, or I am just lazy to move my body and fingers (the EPSP isn’t just enough to start an action potential lols) to switch on ahaha. So I blogged them in my mind. Will translate them into actual posts slowly soon. And next time, I am going to try to blog as soon as I thought of something I want to leave in this pocket for me to read about in the future.