hellos dear blog! :)

EXAMS..OVER!!


It has been 17 days since i last fed my blog with some delicious post. Apparently, so many things happened this few weeks!


I think i made another wrong decision a few weeks back. trying to console myself by telling myself that it was decided last minute n in a rush. N to think i was actually proud of myself cuz its a win-win no harm situation. But now i realise, its maybe not if i were to think deeper, i was not sensitive enough, hate to say this cuz i always defend myself to be very alert infront of yuting. i felt confused now, but what's done cannot be undone. so i hope there is two mysterious people. Mysterious A who is freaking clever so it justified my decision and consideration back then and a mysterious B to even exist in the first place so i can cling on to like a big fat leech (assuming i continue with my sinful diet).


I actually successfully barred myself from msn, no green lights, not even red, for about two weeks? wheehee! But TV addiction is still not curbed, I watch a sinful lot of TV while mugging n i think i will regret it T.T


Lilin went Genting. I realised i miss my mei mei a lot a lot. n daddy 特地 rushed back to malayisa so she managed to meet him! Envy. It has been *counting with fingers* almost 8 years since i saw my dad. I miss him real lot, my popo too. My dad is still as cute as ever, he brought soft toys for us, reminded me of the good old days last time when he always 'kiap' bags and bags of toys from arcade (a gene that i hope to but doubt that i inherit from him) for us. Erm, though the gifts is kind of age-inappropriate already, i still love it and yes, 感触良多.


My jiejie is getting married! :DD


My last paper didn't end with a beautiful note. No rush today at all, cuz i don't even understand the questions in the first place. I told my mum if i can get an A+ for this, i will cut my hair botak. She is holding high hopes on this now and has repeated this N times today. I think she will get disappointed though. N i hope i can at least make it a S. if not, i have to take 6 modules next semester! On a side, despite being unable to do like more than half of the paper, i realised during the paper that i really loved maths. Maybe the feeling is more intense after all the essays for other papers. Writing numbers and all the intergration signs and stuff can be really enjoyable, turst me. the feeling is so good i forgot to panick that i didn't do well. But yea, the feeling of course came back to haunt me afterwards and until now, maybe even until 21st. I don't think i am giving maths up, but i need to rethink how to do it, cuz seriously, i screwed this module, which i feel very bad about.


I fear for my results this semester more than last semester. The F ratios really landed an AHEM score for my individual report T.T. Heart just missed a beat.


I am going UoT for exchange!! wheehee. Internal offer though, hope everything works out fine. Looking forward to the world 13 hours behind. and an awesome train ride to Ottawa, terminal to terminal, get what i mean? ;)


i didn't realised my mum gave all the guiguis away when i was in pgp like 2 weeks later. I didn't even have the chance to say bye bye to them. but i promised them i will give them names after my exams. so here it goes. for the three laojiaos, u guys will be 福、禄、寿..shou will be the biggest one cuz you are the oldest by virtue of size. lu will be the one who munch very louding on the cabbages cuz food is wealth. and fu, you are fu cuz you have lu and shou with you, very xinfu :) for the newcomer, you are 星, like those superstars cuz you came into the family with 'wah so nice de house (aka container)'..and together, you are 福禄寿星 :) i will miss you guys and your funny actions which cause me to spend the whole lot hours looking at you all. please stay healthy and live up to your names :)


feel so good typing everything out. anything that makes me sad, i shall treat it as nurturing my practical intelligence. every event will be a lesson learnt and once in a while, may some bonuses pop by to make my day. ahaha, my development curve is gradual by the way, a smooth continuous curve :)..it means differentiable at every point, and r' is never 0 duiba :)

跌倒了再爬起来

since i am granted the permission to be sad for one day...


this is mad
i actually put in the wrong F ratiosss for my stats report
thats 3 ratios in total
O.M.G.


n my ... and my ....


alright,
self-fulfilling prophecy
need to stop this and tell myself i can do it
yes
i can do it
n i am ending off with a :)


look on the bright side
u have one more week
to chiong all your results back!


meanwhile
don't slack
watch less tv while u go home
stop facebooking n reading almost ALL the news feed
(what a bad habit and
apparently the post-it on the board doesn't help =.=)
stop being green on msn
(but i like the deng deng deng noise red doesn't have)


ahh feeling better

hello to the bei in the pocket

don't feel good leaving an emo post as the most recent post

so just dropping a :) here

and i will do sth about the blog soon :)

okie, thats 2 :)s

alright, 3 :D

can't think of a good title

dear blog, i am feeling very not-myself today. or rather, i think i hadn't been feeling myself since the semester started. too many things swarming in. i am no longer as alert as before. things that i was able to pay attention to last time, i can't now. i start to make a lot of spelling mistakes recently btw. i need. to find myself back.


something very sad happened today, you know, the last time i cried for my maths paper was in primary 5. when problem sum questions jumped from 5 questions in section c to i think 10. so many in the class got freaked out because we couldn't finish the questions in time. alright, i hadn't cry today but the same feeling is back. i am really feeling very sad that i got that results for a maths module, felt this way for ma1505 too but more intense this time. because i have awesome lecturer, awesome lecture kaki and awesome textbook but not even a near awesome performance. time to do something about it. especially because it is maths.


a lot of people around me are having problems. one friend called me today to share about hers. amidst all things, i hope i can still stay strong myself and be there for them. she was saying how can me and another friend be so strong last time when that major problem cropped up and that she definitely can't be as strong. i replied nobody know their inner strength when in fact i am not as strong as i seem too, i don't know where did that phrase come from but i hope it is true and i do have the strength and ability to find the old peiyee back.


read ahbu's blog yesterday. she had this really philosophical post. i thought to myself when will i write like her (meaning think deep deep like yk n people) but on the other hand, i find myself resisting to want to become like them. ironical, bu xiang zhang da i think =P


something that happened earlier this year around jan/feb, i miss it bacause i wasn't responsive enough. After i realised, it was too late. i know its irreversible but if given the chance, may history repeats itself again, i won't be that slow anymore.


to myself, please don't give up (on maths), rmb why you took it in the first place.


such emo updates, i realised i have been typing a lot recently. tomorrow will be a happy day! cuz its CHILDREN'S DAY! its the last day that children's day will be fixed on 1st october though, so treasure it :D i feel like giving gorgor, xl, B12L8, PAPX, hongyi, okie, everyone else lolipops tmr XD haha i even thought of giving one to the maths prof's son XD shall do it in my dream :D

flintstone me!

i have 2 consecutive flintstone thursday!

n the virus is spreading to mondays soon =x

flintstone is one of my fav cartoon when young thou

but i can't believe what has happened

first thursday.

sim card BURNT itself n i am without phone

when i am supposed to be in THREE places at the same time

rushed to the first,

lappy went out of batt, totally lose contact with outside world

on to the second,

but i can't flag a taxi AT ALL

heng a nice uncle allow me to use his phone

and heng i remember amanda's pizza hut alike number

give up on the second,

off to the third

got cheated by a person who told me the lift can't go to level 4

and i stupidly stop at level 3 n went up the flight of stairs with him

with all my heavy stuff!

second thursday.

all went well until i was asked to send email to a vvvip

gan jiong send the first

n realised idk how to send multiple recipients in nus webmail

figure out after eons, okie sent

next, another email for me to send

this time more vvvvvvvvvvvvvip

gan jiong again

copy paste sent

in the end formatting got problem D:

next, follow up email to reply to

i replied and cc relevant people

but sending failed and NOBODY receive it

and i didn't realise it DD:

but today is not thursday yet...

went to cblc to print proposals and brouchure for meetings

log on to my account

and it says my domain is unavailable

ask the i/c, he says i have to try other coms

n i tried like 5 before one finally accepted me 0.o

just what is happening to me

guess all i could say is...

yabba dabba dooooooo!!

ICCS!! 2010 :D

quoting amanda, too many things too little time

so i will keep it short

i went ICCS finally!

feel good to spring clean the places for the animals and plants there

ahaha they celebrated new year on 110910 =)

n i heart the above pict :D

=(

=(

n nice blog, it knows i am sad so the layout became spoilt too.
will give you a new look as soon as i have the time.
then everything will be brand new.
it will be =) again.

Campus in a Tropical Rainforest :D

I am unable to go to sleep thanks to something really silly that i did yesterday. Brain isn't performing at a capacity to allow me to do school work so i thought i might to a little blogging then =P this, is citr part 1..

I got on to this 'zei chuan' last semester. Initially thought i would just be a member inside doing some saikang (which i realised i can be really good at) but apparently i was wrong. Met up with the other two girls and tadah, we are the committee 0.o. Things were really tough initially cuz the three of us knew nothing about how things work, how to do proposals, what to tell the different parties involved and a lot more. felt a little detached at first because when i got in, things were sort of planned out already. but i love the projects proposed. rooftop garden, vertical greening, tree planting, and conservation. i am really a hands on person, i don't like to do the proposal writing, and stuff. but since i am interested in the projects, alright, stay on, i told myself. to convince myself, i recalled someone told me that if you are passionate about something, you shouldn't stay on the hands on/help out stage, you should go up and be at the planning stage, only like this, can you make a difference (though now, i am still quite reluctant to follow this lol). okie, so stayed on..had countless meetings, countless revision of the proposals, countless brainstorming.

but things don't always work to our desires. problems occurred. many problems. sometimes i really wonder how can something as simple as planting be so complicated. but this is also when i start to see the adult world.

learnt a lot from fu lu shou. first time i really see issues from working people's point of view. professionality. we have to be careful with phrasing. one matter requires consultation with many departments and you got bounced here and there. dept promise you something and never get back. pw's minutes is just child's play, the real one took me almost 8 drafts. refreshments for meetings. the top down bottom up approach. how academics, sch admin, corporate sponsors can have polar concerns and need to be reconcile and the list goes on. culture shock.

despite all this, i haven't regret my choice yet. cuz as hongyi mentioned, it gave me great exposure, and most importantly, i am already on the zei chuan and now i want to see the proposal turn into reality :) bonus is the great people i am working with. we are now known as Peijin Amanda Peiyee under supervision of fulushou. although always in a state of 'too many things, too little time' (quoting boss amanda), i believe we will get there. hopefully everything turns out fine. hopefully recruitment would bring awesome teammates :D

now i am shocked at the length that i have typed XD

kids =)

i met some kids today, real genuine kids :)

great experience back again

really felt different tutoring them compared to my paid tuition

whole bunch of naughty noisy but cute kids

not that my tutees are not cute

but they are perhaps a little bit scared of this TEACHER

compared to jiejie

and so behaved particularly well

realised a lot of things i have learnt in minds

apply to the tutoring session too

ahaha just that now there is a briefing

but there is none for minds

lol, so i learnt it the hands-on way last time

interestingly

no sweets

thats the rule

so xl, i can't bribe them =P

but i like the rationale behind it

they shld work for the sense of achievement and not the sweets

though i think when i was that age

sweets appeal to me much more

and i witnessed prejudice and discrimination

sincerely sincerely hope that its just a kids' affair

that kind of fight today, friends tmr stuff

lucky the kid is optimistic

read a girl's journal

reminded me of someone in minds

things that i want to try

but afraid i am not up to the job

and of course not forgetting

all the funny things that kids can think of

all the SUPER LOUD laughters

the back to basics feeling

...

make my day

and yes

11+7=18 :)

not making any sentences

cuz..good night Zzzzz

transition

i am like a maths teacher who got very very angry with a particular event

guess you guys heard me mention before

the maths teacher phenomenon

just that now, i am not dealing with kids but with stress

i believe i am facing this transition period and this moment is the peak haha

year 1 to year 2

non-citr to citr

my uncle

etc

and i am fighting this change as if i am WBC and they are some foreign bodies

hopefully, i will still be MYSELF after this

i don't want to change how i view this world as when i am younger

but maybe after all this

i will learn to think deeper than before

think deep deep like yk/dl

but is this what i want?

nonetheless

i will

MOVE ON

and i will learn to appreciate what i have and ok, whine less

i want to end this post (which may seems emo)

with a LIGHTER NOTE :D

my internet fixed itself miraculously

n things will turn out fine

if not, i will learn from it

whee :D

haha and today i forgotten to take my thumbdrive out of the cblc computer

(which reminded me of jaymie's post after that)

but amazingly

a box popped out upon log off

saying something like

'have you forgotten your thumbdrive?'

thumb up, cblc! :D

1 hour past my bedtime

i am one hour past my bedtime

pgp lan is on strike, i wonder is it the data point, my lan port or lan cable?

and the wireless is super weak=slow

and i spend over an hour for a 2-mins-can-finish adobe flash player download

and i can't watch yog closing ceremony with the not-working CIT

all the IT stuff

together

one night =O

and citr is having problems again

felt so backstabbed by the admin

how come like that

how come so complicated

i just want to plant some trees

will mama earth shake her head when she see this?

on a lighter note

i finally bought my mirco sd card reader, thumbdrives at a lower than expected price,

i got my hair accessories,

my textbook arrived already,

naiyi taught me a little french,

my pencil case is fully equipped

i might be able to eat my fudge cake tmr :)

tmr is a brand new day

good night,world :)

n happy yog :)

throw all my posts all!

this post is going to be really random, almost qualifying as a mindpost:0

a look at the list

19th and citr, eh some other days bahs =P

my hols adventures, i seem to have forgotten a lot, eh so nvm

hah, my library books, okie, i borrow books that are un-readable,

in an english slang which i had a hard time understanding,

so yea, never judge a book by its covers

and and i read 2+1 books this holidays! =)

to kill a mockingbird (FINALLY)!

the content was not what i imagined it to be

but its really nice and warm

despite me having some problems with the culture part

shopaholic!

so now i know its really different from the movie

the lost symbol!

alright, i got myself hooked onto it first week of school

so 509 pages in 2 days

which explained why i am in a daze

lost between 2 worlds

but its awesome!

as usual with dan brown :D

and i realise i have an unhealthy reading habit

i make it my full time commitment once i am on it

maybe i should use conditioning next time haha!

next, laopa

i want to tell cmk that i miss you!

n i realise u cant go with me to take oath when we are 21 le

but i will always remember you

and your 'dude' and 'muthu'

and your wives n many kids in the lockers

(haha, u still rmb or not?)

my room

i am stuck here all alone

o daoed me

but nvm, i had a new friend!

she is an exchange student from cambodia

so cool!

but i forgot to ask what is her room

and poor face recognition

i forgot what she looks like

i wan b12l7 to be like b12l8!!

and naiyi, if u happen to be reading this

i typed all the above on the day 通天干探's last ep day at 10plus

because the freaking CIT is not buffering channel u

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

okie, end of random post =)

thank you to anyone who ever make it to here

few years down the road, i will still smile at this :D

How To Unscrew Caps?

daomin telling waiter:

do you have a rubber band? those red red ones?

can tie it around the cap and turn..

*turning the cap WITHOUT the rubber band*

POP!

out comes the cap.

Background:

AHAHAHAHHAHAHAH

doctor. hands which produce miracles.

i don't know why, but this really makes my day. haha.

monday shall be the day

i am unprepared for school.

i just got my planner yesterday.

(thankew daomin for it! if not, i wonder when will i ever get a decent one that i like)

i haven't gotten all my textbooks.

as of today, my pencil case is still missing an eraser.

monday shall be the day.

i shall aim to get everyday good n proper.

n i shall post all i want to blog on this very space.

so that i have more brain space n feel ready for school

monday.

dig a hole

seriously

i didn't bring my brain out today

seriously

this+this+that

i realised i have been blogging in my mind before sleep this few days, there is just random stuff that happened here and there that i want to pen down so that i can recall next time. the blog list in my brain is queuing up.

shall leave the queue here to serve as retrival cues next time when i finally got the blogging mood :P

1. my 19th year old post (equivalent to the very 1st guy who started queuing for iphone4)
2. CiTR (this is definitely the second guy, its up in my brain even before sem2's finals)
3. my hols' adventures (basically how i idle my time away, jus a repackage to show how 'productive' i am)
4. my mindpost, erm yea, on my library books :)
5. cmk, my laoba
6. my new pgp room

if only i have made all these posts (& few others ones which my brain decided to forget) appear on this very space instead of taking up spaces in my brain, if only there is this sync function. haha

da WORLD CUP FEVER!!

world cup 2010 is finally over!

SPAIN won =)
didn't manage to watch a single full match this time round
so i haven't gotten the chance to try out my method of remembering which team is which!

but anyway, thanks to yuting for the live commentary for the last two matches

when i was night cycling and in lalaland finding my voice.

yuting, those sms were great man!

but i know nothing beats watching it live

and go GOALLL like the uncles at the kopitiam near my hse =P

haha, but if someone asks me what i remember this time for this wc,

ITS PAUL!

o well, another 4 years wait

for now, let's see ickle and Lardee with their football craze at Milk Toof! =)

National day and yog up next! :D

my dear 151

dear 151


i bet you know why i wrote to you. We have been friends for so many years, ever since i shifted out of bukit panjang. However, that doesn't give you the reason to play tricks on me right? why is that everytime i walk to the bus stop, you made sure you reach it faster than i do? and you just happily continue your journey, right in front of me.


yesterday, you made it even worse. you knew i had to rush home from tuition place and yet you made me wait at the busstop for 45 minutes?! do you know i badly wanted to PEE that time? the 45 minutes could have gotten me home earlier! after i sms g and called mummy and you heard that she wants me to take the next bus to the nearest toilet, you fought the other buses to become the very NEXT BUS..interesting huh? obviously, i joined the few other sardines on you and it made it so difficult for me to alight at somewhere with a toilet so i decided to bear with it.


Oh, did you realise an unusual number of people asked your bus uncle for directions and that he sounded unusually friendly and unusually blur? when he picked up his call, i thought there was some flood again somewhere and you had to change your route! at that instance, i pity my bladder who is going to suffer some internal injuries any time soon. well it turn out that your wu long bus uncle did not punch card when he brought you out of kr terminal (i assume that since the person on the other side ask him where is the bus!)


well, then i found a seat which i need desperately to pacify you-know-what. Another uncle came to sit beside me, too near a distance since he is a bit bigger than average. you know he had this handphone with a screen that is bigger than average too. i wonder if it is designed such a way in order for 3 people to look at it simultaneously because i can see what he sms...His friend won consolation prize and the friend is treating him to lunch tomorrow >.< alright, i know i should not do this especially when his phone's wallpaper is some governmental office's logo but his phone is really that big!!


oops, i forgot i am supposed to complain about you. anyway, that about all. at least you sent me home, still with the bursting bladder though, i had to call and ask mama to open the door before i reach, that's how serious it is! so i hope you stop all these games already alright! we are so old already, time to be more mature! don't you dare to os writing to a bus is immature!


friends forever,
peiyee =)


p.s. to my pee factory, i am so sorry i made you go through all these ever since p1's speech & drama class and the time i drank mama's whole pot of barley during kindergarden..

搬家咯！

Don't be mistaken!

i am not shifting house again, as for now

had a conversation with mummy today

and i realise my memory is starting to spring clean my old houses out!

so i shall jot down these places where i once

left my footprints, fingerprints, blah blah blah =)

shifted around 7 times before i came to singapore

cuz different ppl took turns to take care of me and mama, haha

too young to remember but its anywhere between johore and ipoh

227, pending road

the home where i ate a lot of nutella breadspread

thinking they are chocolate

206, petir road

started attening kindergarden at the cc

(oops, mama forgot to enroll me for nursery :P)

and then soon after, i am off to primary school :)

my school bus is 20X (X=3,4,5 or 6 i forgot)

i rmb the unit number is #07-587!

XXX, XXX road

a few months there before we can shift to 273

short stay so i cant remember all the details

its near bangkit road too

remember an aquarium there

and one of the fish died so mama had to buy one back

lilin always have stomachache there

so she seems to be forever sitting on the potty

made mum real angry once when i refused to drink the e.xcel stuff

so she packed my stuff in my fav bag ahma gave me

and ask me 离家出走, haha

273, bangkit road

the house i stayed the longest (around 5 years)

i can remember the whole address plus house phone number orh

LOVE THIS PLACE :D
my whole family painted the house ourselves

my first computer

cycling

skating down the grass slope outside my house with a cardboard

a lot a lot

507, segar road

no house phone

right beside greenridge primary school

but i already graduated from there then o.0

64, fulton road

last time my hse had a house phone

自懂事以来的 first terrace

had a salt & pepper miniature schnauzer

totally objected to having him at first

in the end, i am the one clearing his business and cleaning him

so i kinda miss him now T.T

can see the 三跪一拜 from my house

landmark: guang ming shan

36, hemsley ave

nice garden with hibiscus! :)

at serangoon garden,

meaning near chomp chomp

meaning GOOD FOOD!

landmark: chomp chomp lo!

643, hougang ave 8

o level-ing there

ang moh supermart there

643, hougang ave 8

yep, not typo, i shifted to another unit in the same block

cannot remember the unit number for both the units thou =S

landmark: xin ming sec sch

268D, compassvale link

another favourite!

because its so near to mrt

and its those new HDB

nice house :D

landmark: nil

580, hougang ave 4

super near to hougang green

will miss the tau huay, kway chap, and bookshop there

always telling people who asked me where i live

that i lived near IMH, not INSIDE IMH

landmark: IMH

20, hougang ave 3

i am neighbour with Geraldine!!! =))

the most convenient house so far

it had buses that go anywhere!

and just 2 stops away from kovan mrt

not forgetting nice food too

landmark: SRJC

a quick count, i have shifted house 19 times!

so on an average, its once a year

haha, can qualify as an experienced house mover already

and i do know quite a number of buses :))

but i hope i can stop moving

all the stickers are leaving marks on my ic....

i want to be a...

I WANT TO BE A...

I want to be a teacher because teachers are very clever.

They know about a lot of things.

They teach many students and help them in their work.

My teachers are very nice to me so i want to be like them in the future.

Remembered when we are younger, teachers would always ask us to write about our ambitions. Without fail, my ambition is to be a teacher. I can't really remember what I wrote but it would be something along that line. Frankly speaking, at that age, I didn't really know what I want to be in the future nor do I have the burning passion to be like those tall adults standing infront of the class, talking at an unusual loud volume and always making us learn things that i don't know why we are learning them for. The ambition I wrote down was just the shortlisted ambition i made from an already very short list of ambitions i knew. Back at that time, i guess every 小不点 in the class only knows police, air stewardess, nurses, doctors, lawyers, actors/actresses, and maybe for a rare few, engineeers, on top of teachers. So, I chose teacher. =)

And then, time had wings and I grew taller, I knew a lot more about other occupations. Despite so, i somehow felt that i still wanted to be a teacher, although i knew accountant earns a lot, doctors and laywers enjoy high prestige, event planners can face many interesing challenges and yadah yadah. So, alright, i wanted to be a teacher but i didn't know why because i never really sat down and think of the reasons.

Then came A levels and application for scholarship and stuff. Oops, I had interviews to attend to. There, interviewers would ask me to justify my decision, which meant lisitng reason 1, 2, 3 to convince them... ... So with that, i gave a very disorganised explanation to the police hq psychologist. Disorganised because i had a lot to say but simply don't know how to express myself, to the extent that my mind went blank and gave the example of teachers asking us to drink more water as a form of concern (well, i still think its ok to say that but apparently, thats not a very strong point T.T, esp judging from the psychologist's expression >.<)

For the days that followed, more interviewers asked the same million bucks question. Why be a teacher? Why only apply this and not that? Then, people around me also asked the same questions. That's the period when i really delve about what i really want. I am not sure if ths is really what i would want in the future, but for now, it is :)

After organising my memory bank and thoughts and forcing myself to think and piece the big picture, i think i want to be a teacher because...

I want to make a difference. Motivation behind it is probably because I want to pay it forward, something that Mr Ng enlightened me about. Typical story, I didn't come from a perfect family. I have been through a lot of stuff when i was younger, big big potential triggers that may cause me to go stray and not be the peiyee i am now. Not that my teachers did some extraordinary acts that touched me and made me remain good, in fact, they did nothing because they didn't even know i was feeling down. However, i believe i still owe it to them because at least they made me enjoy schooling when i was younger, so that i felt i had something to work towards to and not give up on myself. A teacher can play a very very important part in a person's life. Though other occupations do have their own challenges and accomplishments, i think nothing beats the teachers' because what they are influencing is a kid's character and development. My teachers gave me a healthy start so i want to do the same for other kids too =)

I had good teachers. Yes, i had awesome teachers, mr jumat, ms lee, ms tan, mr ng and ms wassan to name a few. They made learning different. Some really cared for your welfare, some had marvellous teaching skills, some simply knew how to build good rapport with the class where a teacher-student relationship can be maintained as a friend-friend relationship. I admire them for that and i want to be like them. Again, to pay it forward. =)

I thought my family background can allow me to help certain kids =)

I want to be in touch with kids. Reason? Simplicity. I realise adults think a lot. Though there may still be office politics even in a school environment but at least i get to teach the kids. Naughty at times, they give insights and remarks that adults can never think of. i like this feeling =)

I still feel that I want to be a teacher after so many years.

yup, that's about all i can recall for now. I have to admit that despite all that i want to do as a good teacher, there are bound to be limitations. I may have the desire to be a good teacher but i might not have the ability to. Not everyone knows the tricks to make students gain knowledge happily and willingly, not everyone can click with the kids, not everyone can cope with the demand of being a teacher. However, i will do my best and make sure the passion stays =)

P.S. other random reasons: eat canteen food which is supposedly healthier :P no need to fight with the traffic jam because school starts earlier than office :P can know the lastest youth's stuff from the kiddy informers :P enjoy school holidays (alright, i know there is still work, at least i can dress informally then) :P can rehearse national anthem and pledge everyday :P can see the kids grow and how they fight and argue and yet continued to be friends the next day :P mark exams paper after mine got marked for almost 2o years :P can be in charge of different CCAs and learn a lot of new things! :P and many other things that are exclusive to a teacher =)

school holidaying

School holidaying means i spend my holidays in school, which is kind of true since i have been going to school quite oftenly and this is even my 3rd day in a row in school already. The first 2 days thanks to the huge rain which makes 'flood' in singapore possible. had another meeting in school this morning, so now i am happily playing with my ahaha while i wait for 5pm to take my saliva sample. Alright, shall spend the next 2 hours to do some intensive blogging!

walking is a goody form of exercise too =)

i realised i walked a lot recently

my 战绩with my cotton on rubi sandals so far!

2 hrs walk from vivo to pgp

2 hrs around half of nus

4 hrs walk around hougang

N hours walk in pc show for two days

3 hrs walk around bugis

i heard walking burn fats

so bye bye fats! =)

but, i ate a lot too =P

and to my sandals

thou u are not the best walking khaki

(esp when compared to yuting's)

but unfortunately, i am always wearing you whenever i need to walk a lot

so thank you!

and i will treasure my last few days with you before u snap =X

my hols has reach a point i start to talk to my sandals

lol..may a non-contract job lobang drop from the sky soon!

AnD

i seriously smell something fishy, prawny and crabby between A and D

if there is indeed sth,

to D: you are really very very sick and i am going to turn very nasty,

even though idk how nasty i can get

to A: you only make me more wary and scared of you, really

thank you =)

Told myself that whatever i got for my first uni maths module, i am going to have this post

ma1505 is scary,

because my classmates are all engineers

because my frequecy doesn't match the lecturer's

because uni maths is very diiferent from jc maths

because my maths standard isn't that good to survive uni maths

but it turn out to be better than i expected, though not the best,

and this would be impossible without the following people =)

thank you gorgor

for your well wishes, reminders, shortcuts, past years papers

and your ears and eyes for my whining

about how i am murdered by the assessment =)

thank you yuting

for the wonderful detailed booklet of tutorial solutions and extra details

(that booklet is AMAZING),

also, you ears for my whining too

(esp after i come back from src =P)

and your all your advices regarding the calculator and exam tricks

(ahaha i still rmb)

thank you AK, zinmon, yuthi and khine

okie, thank you AK because you indirectly helped me

by passing the lecture package cds to zinmon, yuthi and khine

and thank you to the 3 burmese girls

for offering to lend me the cds to burn

haha, and at least i am not alone in taking this module =)

thank you to the tutorial booklet tutor
i don't know who she is but she is definitely an A++ tutor

detailed and clear tutorial solutions

with GOOD elaborations and super cool summary

thank you to the lecturer in the CD

the lecture series in the cd was recored in 2006

i don't know who is the lecturer but he is definitely an A++++++++, AWESOME lecturer

when i don't understand my lecturer (which is almost everytime)

the cd lecturer ALWAYS enlighten me

with good explanations, extra elaborations, illustrations and summary

plus he conducts revision, and give reminders for exam (thou its N.A to me =P)!

he is like my saviour! ahaha

thank you to my lecturer cum tutor

although i don't understand what he is talking about

but i think he tried his best and is prepared for lectures

although he likes to suan me when i ask questions

(will always remember his 'all engineers will do that!'

and 'this is just simple algebraic manipulation'),

but he will tried his best to explain and make sure i get it

and his suan-ing 激发 me to not give up!

lastly, thank you to anybody who hear me whine about ma1505 before

and a little thank you to my cheat sheet =)

although i could have squeeze more stuff in

after seeing how cramped yuting's and other ppl's cheatsheet is,

you didn't fail me

and i think my cheatsheet is very neat! (lol, so 自恋 =S)

although not all the above will get to read this,

but i really want to put this down so that i can remember

the extra efforts that have to be put in ,

like listen to lecture twice, review other materials

and MOST IMPORTANTLY, past year papers,

to just get a decent grade in uni maths

and also to remember the people who have helped me

this module is super impactful on me

cuz this is the first time maths can be so UNFAMILIAR to me

and somemore it is the first step i am taking in my desire to minor in maths =S

so 谢谢！=)

and i still love maths ^^

what have you been doing laobei!

okie, i am officially a yr 2 student next sem

since today is a kongbu exam results release day,

i shall jot down my 10 modules taken so far

09/10 sem 1

el1101e - english

not forgetting the crazy project with xiangling, yuting and chris XD

pl1101e - psychology

psych psych psych with tutoral at 8am =)

se1101e - sea studies

assignments done very badly =S

sw1101e - social work

must talk talk talk during tutorial =O

(forgot module code) - genes and society

BIO! ^^

09/10 sem 2

ma1505 - mathematics

killer module where everyone is an engineer

and i don't get what the lecturer is talking about

pl2131 - stats and research

a very unique lecturer

pl3235- social psychology

interesting!

pl3236 - abnormal psychology

scary, both content and assessment

sss1207 -natural heritage

yesh! i am now more educated about nature in singapore =)

but what have i been doing?!!!

i actually allowed my grades to drop!

omg, to think my commitment in sem 1 is so much higher with the

16hrs weekly tuition, gc and yep

and my sem 2 is like slack slack with only citr popping out recently

time to reflect

perhaps last sem i have less time so i worry more and study harder?

so this sem 就懈怠!

so much until abnormal psych's grade just make it to moe's requirement

(heng i am not going to be a clinical psychologist next time)

and i am getting more and more childish

i am starting to have likes and dislikes (no more of this next time! =))

alright, as mum said, this drop will give me MORE (yes much more) room for improvement!

next sem must 发奋图强

must learn from my two role models, one fake and one real elder sibling =)

and naiyi. naima, remember to cane me if u find me lazing around next sem!

CAKES

suddenly feel like eating cakes

so i shall blog to 说蛋糕止渴 :)

beware, the following is totally random

hmm, 2010 is a cake year for me!

think i have eaten the most cake this year

because of all those bday cakes with cluster

my bday cakes

random cakes

and not forgetting the N choc fudge cakes from MEGABITES

shall advertise for choc fudge cake from megabites

well, its simply DELICIOUS

thats all, one word tells it all =P

its so nice it became my way of saying thank you

i gave one to gorgor

one to a grandjunior

and one invisible one to a junior XD

well, if u dun like choc fudge cake

u can go for cheese cake,

they have hazel nut cheesecake

american cheesecake

blueberry cheesecake =)

*disclaimer: i dun earn commission for this*

i hope i can eat a cake now XD

thou i don't really have a liking for cheesecake

i wish one day i can buy one selling at half price after 9 plus from cafe cartel, ahahaha

the weirdy weirdy dream

I realised naiyi posted her weird dream, so i shall post mine too!

ahaha, yea, its the same one i told on msn.

In my dream..

i dreamt that i SUDDENLY RECALLED i gave birth to a baby boy a year ago

the kid has a nickname, GoLi (marbles)

and yes, i was shocked at what i have recalled so i went to look up GoLi's father

hah, interested to know who is the daddy bahs

well, he was a senior whom i spoke less than 2o sentences to

(lol, i have no idea how come i dreamt of him either!! no link at all!)

but anyway, in my dream, it seemed to be arranged by our parents

that we should have a kid together 0.o

but apparently, i forgot about it until one year later

then everything is quite blurry

i carried GoLi, saw his current girlfriend who is someone i don't know but very pretty ^^

but i knew at the end of the dream,

i was telling myself...

This is false memory

This is false memory

This is false memory

and i woke up finding myself trying to recall what happen one year ago -.-

i am just lacking the cold sweat

quite scary if this is true

imagine u did something and u totally forgot about it

only to remember it some time later

like those mentioned in psych tb

when u chose to repress and forget something that is very traumatic

but it is also possible that people lead you to believe that

something has taken place last time when it hasn't

and you believed it to be true

yea i shall bloggg soonnnnn..

i told myself i want to blog

before that rusty brain of mine decides to have spring cleaning one day
but i admit
I AM LAZY!

pgp bus uncles

yep, the title is pgp bus uncles :)

the MOTIVATION (as ma1505 lecturer always says so) behind this post:

yuting couldn't feel her expected highness and holiday day mood after her last paper today. She attributed it to the 'not so good' ending. So, she expected that she might only feel the highness when she meet me for movie later at night. Next up, she boarded the shuttle bus. From the bus mirror, she spotted a mole, then she realised the driver was WANG ZHAO JUN whom she apparently shared great round shit with.

OKIE, and here comes the main highlight, WANG ZHAO JUN triggered her holiday mood and she felt really happy!

Since don't know when,

our cluster is like obsessed with bus uncles, perhaps because we have to take numerous shuttle buses to commute within NUS everyday.

Since don't know when,

we started to take note the names of the bus uncles

Since don't know when,

we started to see who is the bus uncle whenever we board the bus

Since don't know when,

yuting will always sms us

whenever she is either in Wang Zhao Jun or Ah Too's buses

Since don't know when,

we will include discussion of bus uncles in our conversation

if i am not wrong,

it all started with pam expressing her desire to see Ah Too

Caught his cute comments on those ppl crossing roads one day

it will make ur day :D

haha, but its really "i really don't know how to describe" when i heard the story from yuting. somehow, the shuttle bus uncles have such influence.

and it make me realise this is one of the many unique experiences

that the 6 of us share

but a pity, 天无不散之筵席

so we are going to make full use of the remaining stay in pgp this sem!

5th - 7th may =)))

P.S. i realised i never board mr wang's bus before, lol

OOOH YESH!!

its 3.17 am now!! and i just bathed less than half an hour ago. ohyes!

like what naiyi said, 3rd may 10 is a happy day!

just like 2nd dec 09 was

amazingly i can still remember it. it shows how impactful uni exams are:)

"soup spooned" (the mushroon soup is way too mushroomy o.0)

and watch iron man 2 with yuting,

my fellow 'last paper ends on 3rd may' kaki!

CHAO HAO KAN DE!

Haha, in the end we missed the last bus back to pgp by about 1o minutes

so WE DECIDED TO TAKE BUS 11!

with that, we took 2hrs from vivo to pgp

through the temple, the numerous petrol stations (about 5-6 i guess), the apartment blocks, the landed property, PSA, the numerous pubs leading to haw par villa, haw par villa, science park and finally PGP!

and so many eyes were on us!

hee eyes of taxi uncles i meant

see how they slow down (1 even honked) and 'beow' us,

and there is this serious oversupply of taxis this area

in a traffic light junction, there can be like 8 taxis, 8 empty ones

but we are like naughty girls who spent all our money

...thus have to walk home =P

what an experience yea.

=))

joke of the sem

The pgp lift played a prank on us.

Yes, the PGP LIFT.

I never knew residences' lifts play april fool's joke too, haha.

This is what happened.

Two wanderers went down to nanyang supermarket to buy some stuff.

With some money.

With only a transponder.

Without any phone.

After shopping is done, we took the infamous b12l8 lift.

Everything as usual.

Press transponder, wait for the light, press button 8.

And lift went up, slowly as usual.

Then it stopped and the doors opened.

oh, the kitchen cleaning auntie is outside waiting for the lift too :)

So out we went and in she entered.

Then, geraldine tried opening the cluster gate with her transponder.

But, no reponse.

No usual "beep" sound.

peiyee: eh, no battery? but i thought mine was the one battery low?

geraldine: only got one transponder leh..try the lift again see got problem? or try calling daomin? like last time how she called pam? But this time must louder, daomin is so far away.

...

DAOMIN!!! DAOMIN!!!

(banging of cluster gate)

DAOMIN DAOMIN DAOMIN!!!!

...

10 minutes later

DAOMIN!! DAOMIN!!

(still banging of cluster gate)

...

(gave up and went to try the lift)

geraldine: what if got people inside?

peiyee: then we go down and come up again lor.

...

The lift went from X floor up to 8th floor but didn't open.

Then 8 change to 7.

(lift door open, weird hor)

but our neighbour from room A is inside!!

(our faces brightened up)

(but she doesn't seem to be coming out? )

peiyee: 可以帮我们开门吗？我们开不到。

("huh?" look on her face)

neighbour: 这是七楼耶，...，电梯怪怪的。

i turned back and looked

yes, one big 7 on the wall (-_-")

七楼.

if anyone on 7th floor is in their room,

daomin should be rather famous now.

yuitng, this should make your day bahs,

no, maybe year.

healthy lifestyle week :)

monday

back to nj grab blender

rushed back to nus

chiong from yih to lt32 on BUS 11

in 8 minutes!

tuesday

ice skating

super energy consuming for noobs

skating ALONG the ring

wednesday

jogging with shermin!

jogged from 8th lane to 2nd lane

NON-STOP

thats like so much more than nafa ^^

thursday

lilies folding

exercises for my 10 fingers :D

friday

2 hours CiTR walk

from pgp all the way to SRC through fos

(and i see the native garden and vertical garden! ^^)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY MILK TOOF

hah, i know its not much of my business but..

MY MILK TOOF IS ONE YEAR OLD! :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ickle & Lardee!

thanks for always making my day

happy growing :D

agn! but this time it is ULTIMATE SLOWNESS

since you said you want to close the windows, so be it

凶什么凶! T.T

nonetheless, i am sorry

and i really felt very awful about it

but if i agree, it will only do you more bad

who says slow and steady wins the race
sometimes slow may not even equate steady

have learnt my lesson

next time eyes, ears, heart, brain, etc etc must open big big

okie, now must write sth nice and happy
sungei buloh trip with meetoh primary!

its a cutie bunch of 40 p3/4 kids =)

i nearly forgot this gonna be the size

that i am going to handle in a few years' time

energetic, talkative, inquisitive, naive, active, imaginative

and so much more.

and they were so cool, could spot so many animals even before i do!

really miss being a kid! :D

A lolipop a day makes the happy kid in you stays :)

settled.

settled.

i felt grown up a little

but for some reasons i felt odd at the same time

canon will do the trick :)

stop being a gongkia

okie, i think i should ask

now i want to know the ans

becuase i can't believe i didn't catch it

but its so malu

where can i get the courage?

in yeeyee? in my junkfood? in my homework? in multi-tasking?

... ...

the little boy with his one dollar coin

tuesday, 2nd march 2010


laobei is mugging in pgp for her maths test the day after
she went down to canteen to dabao her lunch and buy some post-its
on her way there, she saw a little boy skipping happily
they smiled to each other
then he flashed out his shiny gold coin
and exclaimed in his cute little voice
BUY ICE CREAM! :D


the little boy really made laobei's day
laobei hopes she can behave like the little boy too.


when is the last time you felt so happy over a gold coin?

ITS A HAPPY DAY :)

HAPPY CHI NEW YEAR!

新年快乐！:)

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TOO <3

touched

sorry guys i behaved kinda anormally :P

maybe due to the shock and this feeling clashed with my usual CNY excitement

lol, but i really touched by all those convos

shall leave it here so that i can remember

loss, yea i spelt it wrongly

LOST, where is ah oink

ah oink came online immediately (OMG) after that

but apparently didn't talk to me

surprised i felt a little anger

LOST, where are you yingxian?

yingxian came and talked to me!! so cool!

and it helped a lot

thanks mei nv :)

LOST..i need to talk

god aka superman came and offered me this link

www.streetdirectory.com >.<

and we played our guessing game and SAVED it

LOST..i need to talk

mr social worker with his zhi ye bing

called and talked to me for i think about 2 hours

lol..zhi ye bing ah..but i glad you found your passion,

you really make a good social worker

but i am a bad client, i am still deciding between option 4 or 5

LOST..i need to talk

gorgor's turn

yea will take good care of myself

btw, my pah carh recovered, REALLY :)

LOST..i need to talk

GERALDINE

ahahaha and her pam's face

nth much but it put a smile on my face

Thank you peeps ^^

feel so happy now

whoots

my CNY mood is back :)

新年来咯！新年来咯！

to the tune of 新年来咯song, lol ^^

what a day

today is a special thursday

while walking down the stairs from central library,

one clumsy elephant elegantly fell down 2 steps

i hope there is this spotlight effect

so that i had successfully overestimated

the number of people who noticed this elephant

at night

geraldine was talking about gags

lol and i got this call from a stranger saying he had a delivery for me

haha, gags? i thought to myself

so off to meeting room 3

yea, its so much worse and awkward than farrer park

SPEECHLESS

LOST

i think goddess and qianjin should be settling down in australia

kinda weird not seeing slowpoke online T.T

hope they are doing fine

hope the internet there is doing fine

and next up, QAD, its your turn!

i am so going to miss you peeps

retrieval cues

in laobei's language

someone's lousy affective forecasting last year

(its human nature thou, so..forgiven)

~

the kongbu question that stumped me this year

(no matter how scared you are)

~

the sweet dream of talking to a dog through the phone

okie, it should be in my long term memory now

blk 12 lvl 8-ing

hmm, as requested, blk 12 lvl 8 presents

the romantic story of little pam and little ahem

ahem: pamela, i love you

pam: i love you too! (in the deep fried egg accent)

topic of discussion: the return of the condor heroes

someone: eh and the yang guo also call gugu, gugu

another SOMEONE: huh, got wu ya (crow) de ah :D

i am too full to continue...

the new da wei wang

i can't believe i had this and a honeydew for dinner

and i finished everything in like less than half an hour!

i feel food in my throat now ><

peiyee loves her cluster <3

I have a wonderful cluster in this supposedly anti social pgp.

different people from different schs and different faculty, with different personalities, different likes and dislikes but we just clicked :D

hee, had a wonderful chat with the peeps today and yesterday

yesterday it was about laughters and i think we had laughter overdose..lol

and i especially like the topic today! somehow we are trying to recall what we did in the past. and things just keep coming back. i thought i must really blog it down lest i forget these memories (that of the past and of course those with the blk 12 lvl 8 -ians) with my STM :)

hmm random stuff that i can still rmb..

the cartoons we watched when we are younger!

flintstones (rmb the melody?)

power ranger (the aiyayaya robot, the watch that make a sound)

ninja turtle (pizza!)

rugrats

casper (they said sth classic abt the movie which i can't really recall)

etc etc

and i suddenly thought of angel's simpsons :D

then there is this digimon, pokemon, and the different series, lol

our games!

hopscotch (rmb how we chope the place with our water bottle?)

catching

tamagochi (how the pet always die after a few days)

super mario!

gameboys

beyblade

(and i realise i am be quite pro in 'gaming' too, the wonderful time with papa)

etc etc

the classics TV shows (the topic that sparked off the whole convo!)

xiao ao jiang hu

shen diao xia lv

bo ying ren (meepok, and chen mei guang guang guang ><)

gan gan zuo ge kai xin ren

dong you ji

pck

aiyoyo lao shi

huan zhu ge ge

other random stuff

wet tissue throwing in toilet

autograph booking in pri 6 (with the whats your fav food, likes and dislikes, poems, 100% friend, 90% friends, blah blah)

the telephone coil thingy we use to secure our wallet :D (swing swing swing)
how we hang our water bottle around our neck and bring it to recess

da ge da around 1994

(reminded me how mama complained that papa spent a whole 1K on one)

pagers (and how to operate it)

our first HP

how telephone numbers evolved to include a 6

and many many other things

hah, no much xiao dians with me blogging about it,

but when one really talk about it with close peeps,

there is sth to laugh about almost every other second, really LMAO >.<

hen is right,we are the privileged batch

to have seen all the changes and technological advances

i know only today that the Internet is younger than us and the domains story

it will definitely be interesting to know what answers

kids from other age group can share

realised we talked about a lot of things under the sun

perhaps we are away from home?

learn real lots from them

and realise we actually understand each other quite well :D

with our daidee cards, door tags and many many more

ahaha i think i got influenced by dajie from the ppt trip

instead of having my chou shis being penned down,

maybe this time i should pen down our cluster's chou shi too..

countless

'go ubin need passport mah huh?'

oops, i am still not blogging in proper sentences...

hello 2010!!

hee, i said bye bye to 2009 in myanmar!!
Its a year well spent I guess because I had my many first times.
hah, shall leave it to my 'say byebye to the 19 year old club' post =P

and hello 2010!
its a new year ahead! =D
the ppt trip made me learn a lot of things
things that i decided to pen down in my tang guo shi jie book
they shall accompany me through 2010 and the many years to come :)


hmm..and the postcard i sent from myanmar haven't arrived yet..
luckily i didn't attempt to send my monkey yee yee thought post!


ohya. i had a WONDERFUL time bidding with cors this semester,
REALLY WONDERFUL
so wonderful I spent many many points (heartache)
so wonderful I behaved like an auntie picking leftovers in round 2c
so wonderful i nearly took languages and someone laughed his ass off
so wonderful i changed my plans here and there
haha, i think xiangling will blog about it too bah..
but, everything turns out fine..a MEMORABLE YEP bidding experience indeed :D