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EXAMS..OVER!!


It has been 17 days since i last fed my blog with some delicious post. Apparently, so many things happened this few weeks!


I think i made another wrong decision a few weeks back. trying to console myself by telling myself that it was decided last minute n in a rush. N to think i was actually proud of myself cuz its a win-win no harm situation. But now i realise, its maybe not if i were to think deeper, i was not sensitive enough, hate to say this cuz i always defend myself to be very alert infront of yuting. i felt confused now, but what's done cannot be undone. so i hope there is two mysterious people. Mysterious A who is freaking clever so it justified my decision and consideration back then and a mysterious B to even exist in the first place so i can cling on to like a big fat leech (assuming i continue with my sinful diet).


I actually successfully barred myself from msn, no green lights, not even red, for about two weeks? wheehee! But TV addiction is still not curbed, I watch a sinful lot of TV while mugging n i think i will regret it T.T


Lilin went Genting. I realised i miss my mei mei a lot a lot. n daddy 特地 rushed back to malayisa so she managed to meet him! Envy. It has been *counting with fingers* almost 8 years since i saw my dad. I miss him real lot, my popo too. My dad is still as cute as ever, he brought soft toys for us, reminded me of the good old days last time when he always 'kiap' bags and bags of toys from arcade (a gene that i hope to but doubt that i inherit from him) for us. Erm, though the gifts is kind of age-inappropriate already, i still love it and yes, 感触良多.


My jiejie is getting married! :DD


My last paper didn't end with a beautiful note. No rush today at all, cuz i don't even understand the questions in the first place. I told my mum if i can get an A+ for this, i will cut my hair botak. She is holding high hopes on this now and has repeated this N times today. I think she will get disappointed though. N i hope i can at least make it a S. if not, i have to take 6 modules next semester! On a side, despite being unable to do like more than half of the paper, i realised during the paper that i really loved maths. Maybe the feeling is more intense after all the essays for other papers. Writing numbers and all the intergration signs and stuff can be really enjoyable, turst me. the feeling is so good i forgot to panick that i didn't do well. But yea, the feeling of course came back to haunt me afterwards and until now, maybe even until 21st. I don't think i am giving maths up, but i need to rethink how to do it, cuz seriously, i screwed this module, which i feel very bad about.


I fear for my results this semester more than last semester. The F ratios really landed an AHEM score for my individual report T.T. Heart just missed a beat.


I am going UoT for exchange!! wheehee. Internal offer though, hope everything works out fine. Looking forward to the world 13 hours behind. and an awesome train ride to Ottawa, terminal to terminal, get what i mean? ;)


i didn't realised my mum gave all the guiguis away when i was in pgp like 2 weeks later. I didn't even have the chance to say bye bye to them. but i promised them i will give them names after my exams. so here it goes. for the three laojiaos, u guys will be 福、禄、寿..shou will be the biggest one cuz you are the oldest by virtue of size. lu will be the one who munch very louding on the cabbages cuz food is wealth. and fu, you are fu cuz you have lu and shou with you, very xinfu :) for the newcomer, you are 星, like those superstars cuz you came into the family with 'wah so nice de house (aka container)'..and together, you are 福禄寿星 :) i will miss you guys and your funny actions which cause me to spend the whole lot hours looking at you all. please stay healthy and live up to your names :)


feel so good typing everything out. anything that makes me sad, i shall treat it as nurturing my practical intelligence. every event will be a lesson learnt and once in a while, may some bonuses pop by to make my day. ahaha, my development curve is gradual by the way, a smooth continuous curve :)..it means differentiable at every point, and r' is never 0 duiba :)