hellos dear blog! :)

EXAMS..OVER!!


It has been 17 days since i last fed my blog with some delicious post. Apparently, so many things happened this few weeks!


I think i made another wrong decision a few weeks back. trying to console myself by telling myself that it was decided last minute n in a rush. N to think i was actually proud of myself cuz its a win-win no harm situation. But now i realise, its maybe not if i were to think deeper, i was not sensitive enough, hate to say this cuz i always defend myself to be very alert infront of yuting. i felt confused now, but what's done cannot be undone. so i hope there is two mysterious people. Mysterious A who is freaking clever so it justified my decision and consideration back then and a mysterious B to even exist in the first place so i can cling on to like a big fat leech (assuming i continue with my sinful diet).


I actually successfully barred myself from msn, no green lights, not even red, for about two weeks? wheehee! But TV addiction is still not curbed, I watch a sinful lot of TV while mugging n i think i will regret it T.T


Lilin went Genting. I realised i miss my mei mei a lot a lot. n daddy 特地 rushed back to malayisa so she managed to meet him! Envy. It has been *counting with fingers* almost 8 years since i saw my dad. I miss him real lot, my popo too. My dad is still as cute as ever, he brought soft toys for us, reminded me of the good old days last time when he always 'kiap' bags and bags of toys from arcade (a gene that i hope to but doubt that i inherit from him) for us. Erm, though the gifts is kind of age-inappropriate already, i still love it and yes, 感触良多.


My jiejie is getting married! :DD


My last paper didn't end with a beautiful note. No rush today at all, cuz i don't even understand the questions in the first place. I told my mum if i can get an A+ for this, i will cut my hair botak. She is holding high hopes on this now and has repeated this N times today. I think she will get disappointed though. N i hope i can at least make it a S. if not, i have to take 6 modules next semester! On a side, despite being unable to do like more than half of the paper, i realised during the paper that i really loved maths. Maybe the feeling is more intense after all the essays for other papers. Writing numbers and all the intergration signs and stuff can be really enjoyable, turst me. the feeling is so good i forgot to panick that i didn't do well. But yea, the feeling of course came back to haunt me afterwards and until now, maybe even until 21st. I don't think i am giving maths up, but i need to rethink how to do it, cuz seriously, i screwed this module, which i feel very bad about.


I fear for my results this semester more than last semester. The F ratios really landed an AHEM score for my individual report T.T. Heart just missed a beat.


I am going UoT for exchange!! wheehee. Internal offer though, hope everything works out fine. Looking forward to the world 13 hours behind. and an awesome train ride to Ottawa, terminal to terminal, get what i mean? ;)


i didn't realised my mum gave all the guiguis away when i was in pgp like 2 weeks later. I didn't even have the chance to say bye bye to them. but i promised them i will give them names after my exams. so here it goes. for the three laojiaos, u guys will be 福、禄、寿..shou will be the biggest one cuz you are the oldest by virtue of size. lu will be the one who munch very louding on the cabbages cuz food is wealth. and fu, you are fu cuz you have lu and shou with you, very xinfu :) for the newcomer, you are 星, like those superstars cuz you came into the family with 'wah so nice de house (aka container)'..and together, you are 福禄寿星 :) i will miss you guys and your funny actions which cause me to spend the whole lot hours looking at you all. please stay healthy and live up to your names :)


feel so good typing everything out. anything that makes me sad, i shall treat it as nurturing my practical intelligence. every event will be a lesson learnt and once in a while, may some bonuses pop by to make my day. ahaha, my development curve is gradual by the way, a smooth continuous curve :)..it means differentiable at every point, and r' is never 0 duiba :)

跌倒了再爬起来

since i am granted the permission to be sad for one day...


this is mad
i actually put in the wrong F ratiosss for my stats report
thats 3 ratios in total
O.M.G.


n my ... and my ....


alright,
self-fulfilling prophecy
need to stop this and tell myself i can do it
yes
i can do it
n i am ending off with a :)


look on the bright side
u have one more week
to chiong all your results back!


meanwhile
don't slack
watch less tv while u go home
stop facebooking n reading almost ALL the news feed
(what a bad habit and
apparently the post-it on the board doesn't help =.=)
stop being green on msn
(but i like the deng deng deng noise red doesn't have)


ahh feeling better

hello to the bei in the pocket

don't feel good leaving an emo post as the most recent post

so just dropping a :) here

and i will do sth about the blog soon :)

okie, thats 2 :)s

alright, 3 :D

can't think of a good title

dear blog, i am feeling very not-myself today. or rather, i think i hadn't been feeling myself since the semester started. too many things swarming in. i am no longer as alert as before. things that i was able to pay attention to last time, i can't now. i start to make a lot of spelling mistakes recently btw. i need. to find myself back.


something very sad happened today, you know, the last time i cried for my maths paper was in primary 5. when problem sum questions jumped from 5 questions in section c to i think 10. so many in the class got freaked out because we couldn't finish the questions in time. alright, i hadn't cry today but the same feeling is back. i am really feeling very sad that i got that results for a maths module, felt this way for ma1505 too but more intense this time. because i have awesome lecturer, awesome lecture kaki and awesome textbook but not even a near awesome performance. time to do something about it. especially because it is maths.


a lot of people around me are having problems. one friend called me today to share about hers. amidst all things, i hope i can still stay strong myself and be there for them. she was saying how can me and another friend be so strong last time when that major problem cropped up and that she definitely can't be as strong. i replied nobody know their inner strength when in fact i am not as strong as i seem too, i don't know where did that phrase come from but i hope it is true and i do have the strength and ability to find the old peiyee back.


read ahbu's blog yesterday. she had this really philosophical post. i thought to myself when will i write like her (meaning think deep deep like yk n people) but on the other hand, i find myself resisting to want to become like them. ironical, bu xiang zhang da i think =P


something that happened earlier this year around jan/feb, i miss it bacause i wasn't responsive enough. After i realised, it was too late. i know its irreversible but if given the chance, may history repeats itself again, i won't be that slow anymore.


to myself, please don't give up (on maths), rmb why you took it in the first place.


such emo updates, i realised i have been typing a lot recently. tomorrow will be a happy day! cuz its CHILDREN'S DAY! its the last day that children's day will be fixed on 1st october though, so treasure it :D i feel like giving gorgor, xl, B12L8, PAPX, hongyi, okie, everyone else lolipops tmr XD haha i even thought of giving one to the maths prof's son XD shall do it in my dream :D

flintstone me!

i have 2 consecutive flintstone thursday!

n the virus is spreading to mondays soon =x

flintstone is one of my fav cartoon when young thou

but i can't believe what has happened

first thursday.

sim card BURNT itself n i am without phone

when i am supposed to be in THREE places at the same time

rushed to the first,

lappy went out of batt, totally lose contact with outside world

on to the second,

but i can't flag a taxi AT ALL

heng a nice uncle allow me to use his phone

and heng i remember amanda's pizza hut alike number

give up on the second,

off to the third

got cheated by a person who told me the lift can't go to level 4

and i stupidly stop at level 3 n went up the flight of stairs with him

with all my heavy stuff!

second thursday.

all went well until i was asked to send email to a vvvip

gan jiong send the first

n realised idk how to send multiple recipients in nus webmail

figure out after eons, okie sent

next, another email for me to send

this time more vvvvvvvvvvvvvip

gan jiong again

copy paste sent

in the end formatting got problem D:

next, follow up email to reply to

i replied and cc relevant people

but sending failed and NOBODY receive it

and i didn't realise it DD:

but today is not thursday yet...

went to cblc to print proposals and brouchure for meetings

log on to my account

and it says my domain is unavailable

ask the i/c, he says i have to try other coms

n i tried like 5 before one finally accepted me 0.o

just what is happening to me

guess all i could say is...

yabba dabba dooooooo!!

ICCS!! 2010 :D

quoting amanda, too many things too little time

so i will keep it short

i went ICCS finally!

feel good to spring clean the places for the animals and plants there

ahaha they celebrated new year on 110910 =)

n i heart the above pict :D

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n nice blog, it knows i am sad so the layout became spoilt too.
will give you a new look as soon as i have the time.
then everything will be brand new.
it will be =) again.